I just wanted to say that I feel blessed. It feels like only yesterday, but 6 months ago I stopped having chemotherapy and I got to move on with my life. Other people aren't so lucky and I am thankful for the health I have now been given (fingers crossed it continues to improve). I still get tired and emotional at times, but I have learned so much. I have learned how to be stronger and how to appreciate the smaller things. It's made me truly consider what is important and what I want from my life.
I sat and asked myself, if I got ill again and there was no cure for me, what would make me disappointed that I hadn't done it? And then I realised it's those things that I need to do and to not live with regrets, but with hope and appreciation and wonder.
Life is precious and so many people waste it doing things they don't enjoy and missing out on the magical moments. For me, I really want to travel and experience the World and culture. I also want to make a difference and help protect endangered animals and save nature from our destruction. And perhaps be a very successful actress too ;) Not much then, right?
It's funny how I see the World now. I drove across a river in Cornwall a few weeks back and the serenity of the moment made me cry. I suppose being ill makes you feel vulnerable, when before you feel like nothing can break you and it will always be someone else. Especially when your 24....
I have so much left to fulfill in my life. So much good to do. And I just hope I can achieve it. Not all of it will be pleasant, but it will be meaningful and that's what is important. Sometimes it's the road untravelled which is the best route.
I hope that others can learn from me to appreciate their lives and to do what they love, not what they think they need to do.
Thank you, to whomever gave me the chance to live. I am grateful.
