It would appear my blog is international - thanks for reading :) Apparently I am more interesting than I thought I was!!

So my hair is still shedding one hair at a time. Why couldn't it be my leg hair? Or armpit hair? That'd save me a lot of hassle! But hey-ho. I'm not sure where the hair loss goes from here or how bad it gets but I suppose now is the time I should consider whether I shave it or not. There must be like 1000 hairs on my head.... they'd swamp my bed. But I'm not sure, after the stresses of this week, if I'm really ready to accept my hair going. So far I've sort of been able to pretend still that I don't have cancer.... it's kinda coming to the point where reality is going to give me a big hard slap. I expected my hair to fall out, especially as my body is reacting so strongly to chemo. But didn't think it'd be this soon.

I think I will be most upset if my eyelashes and eyebrows go.... I don't want to lose those. But so far *touch wood* my body hair seems unaffected. Although I half expect to wake up one morning hairless.

What can you do eh? And these look good feel good classes are booked up till May, which is shit. Might need some make-up advice before then ;) But I suppose at least I will get to go to one eventually. Which is better than what some people get. So I'm grateful for that.

I got a letter today with a CT appointment. Is booked just after a chemo so that's not gonna happen. Unless they want me to vomit all over the Scanner. The thought of ink taste in my mouth when I'm nauseated... ugh. I also thought I was going to be getting a PET, so have enquired as to why I am not. Especially as my bone marrow was active on my last PET and I need to see if it still is. My nurse is going to have so many emails when she gets back from her holiday :p But these things are important and if you don't ask then you don't get (sadly). This is where I am glad I am intelligent... the hospital are probably not so glad!! But I've been fobbed off so many times in my life, on one occassion nearly died, so I take my health very seriously. And I want it done the best it can be. And we all have that right.

If in doubt research and ask :) never just sit on it if it doesn't seem right!