Posty post

I'm running out of titles for my posts.... I will blame my chemo brain!!

My sore mouth is vastly improved today :) Which is good!! I'm still sticking to my simple foods but they're easier to eat. I have, however, seemed to have developed a slight headache. But this may be stress related. It started last night and has continued into today. It could be linked to the fact I didn't sleep well. I'm not sure why, I was exhausted last night, but I just couldn't sleep. I heard that sometimes steroids can do this though (although I'd of though they'd be out my system by now). Or it may be the boredom eating my brain!!

On a positive note, my IBS I had before all this seems to be cured *touch wood* so there you go, ABVD cures IBS!! Or it may be my change in diet but shhhhh either way it's good :) let's hope it stays that way!

I'm glad that so many people have been reading my blog and I hope it's been helpful. A lot of people have said I'm very positive and optimistic and I thought I'd add that, although yes I tend to be that way, I struggle too. And if anyone reading this is feeling low or sad because they're going through something similar, we all have those moments. I have days where I'm cross at life and days where I feel lonely and sad. It's good to get all that out. But I like to think that being positive and believing it's all okay will make it all okay. And it's helped me through a lot of other things too.

I think the hardest thing about cancer is that I was convinced I would never get cancer. No one in my family has had cancer. And I look back just a few months and my life was normal and I'd never of thought for a second I'd be here. I look at my holiday pictures from the summer and think how happily clueless I was. It would be nice to be back there - but one cannot dwell!! And there will be better summers to come :) I think it's all very surreal to me still.

I have lots of exciting plans though :) x