hi all... so on Monday I had chemo number 4. I feel awful still :(  Even those adverts on TV that show drips make me gag. Anything hospital related gets me heaving. bleugh. it's horrible!! But I'm trying my hardest to manage it. I avoid thinking. I think I may look into some alternative therapies though, as my anti-emetics don't work. My brain is too stubborn for them. And funnily enough, I spoke to a nurse who had actually had chemo and she said she stopped taking her anti-emetics because they made her feel worse. and a lot of the sickness does come down to smells and associations.

my half-way scan is booked for the 30th.... then chemo should continue. I bloody hate chemo. I cannot wait till it's over. It gets harder every time and the smells get worse. Even writing this is making me gag.

My sisters wedding was nice... had a few drinks and a dance. shame I had to come back to reality. It was also saddening that some people struggled so much to talk to me. But what can you do eh? Got enough to be worrying about!!

The puppy is being very well behaved. She sleeps mostly on my bad days and is toilet trained pretty much. So that's good. When this nausea passes I will take her out for lots of walks :) But she's tiny so even a brief walk tires her out. I took her for a run the other day and she wanted carrying for half of it. I didn't carry her... lazy dog!!