Sorry for my delay in posting.... have felt rather rough since chemo on Thursday. It gets worse every time haha. I hate it so much. I feel sick and gag even thinking about chemo now; I can't even look at my port anymore. But I'm working on controlling my thinking so I don't feel so sick.

Nausea was bad again.... started before I even got chemo. I found I couldn't take my nausea tablets as I can't swallow pills when I feel sick. But I think the tablets make me feel worse (which is bizarre). I have some sedative nausea tablets for next time..... hopefully I won't be dribbling in the corner.

My nemesis Dr Sore mouth returned but I have been trying to ignore him. I've had to eat because I've been feeling so sick if I don't eat and I keep getting hot flushes and faint feelings. So eating I have to do else I think I probably would just vomit and pass out. Hopefully it's not early menopause? :/

I'm finding it really hard not being able to work or do normal stuff.... it's boring and frustrating. You'd think with the invention of wigs it'd be okay not to have much hair but not everyone thinks like that. It's really isolating and God knows how people enjoy living off benefits. It's crap.

All these people who complain about having a cold or about stupid petty things really have no idea. I'd happily swap!! I just want to enjoy my life again and sort my career out and make plans and do what young people do.

Bring on July and hopefully remission!