Had my 6th chemo on Friday - threw up again and feel like absolute shit still. I am so fed up. I can't shift this nausea and vomiting, which keeps getting worse :( I've tried it all now and yeh.... doesn't work. I can't begin to put into words how horrific nausea and vomiting is. I figured I'd reached the worst it was gonna be but this time proved me wrong. Just wish is was over with now. I've had enough. I'm pretty much bed bound because when I move I need to be sick.
I don't think anyone really gets what a shit time it is either. They act like it's all daisies and butterflies. "Only two more to go, nothing to worry about!" - well you try having two chemotherapies and vomiting your guts up and your whole life just stopping and everyone just acting like nothing is wrong. Stuff is wrong. I'm having chemo.... I need support. I need comforting. I'm not made of metal.
Just had enough of all of it this weekend.
ABVD is properly horrible, and it does take it out of you more and more as time goes on. There are no words to make it better for you, if anything maybe you just need people to say, you poor love you are having a really shit time and it's not fair! I think sometimes we just need this experience to be acknowledged xx
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